Okay, I know, I over reacted a little. I also had a dream last night where I screamed at my caretaker cause she doesn't do anything, and she screamed back and told me I was lying and blah blah. Clearly I'm a -wee- bit tense right now.
I'm pretty sure I know why. I'm generally quite happy right now, I just feel that I'm killing time here in Winnipeg. I have so many things awaiting me in GA, and so few things holding me here. And I'm waiting for so many things too, that's always really hard for Ms semi OCD me. I just started typing out a list of all the things that I'm currently waiting for, but y'all don't care and besides, its depressingly long.
Oh well, the upside! 13 sleeps til I get to go on an 8 hour car ride, which I love (so long as I can sit in the front, or drive, so motion sickness doesn't get me). Then I get to see Paul's parents again, which I'm really lookin forward to. THEN I get to see Paul, which will make everything a bit better again :) Plus, I'll get to have Smeagol snuggling too. And, next week, I'm applying for one of those medical research studies again. If I get accepted, I spend a couple hours there for 4 days and they give me $75. I'm tired of not working by now, but I can't really cause I -can- afford not to right now, barely, plus it would mean no visiting Paul.
Money is a bit of a concern right now though too. Its 6 days til I get more money and I have 90 cents to my name. Paul would give me some money in a heartbeat, but I don't want to be reliant on him. And I've had SO many unusual expenses in the past month! You know how that goes... Jennie's wedding ( I had to get a new outfit and a gift ) and Bernice's birthday, and mom and dad's 45th anniversary is next week (Paul's dad is making mom a family ring, I'm so excited to give it to her, she's gonna FREAK OUT!!!!) Amy's birthday in 2 weeks, my birthday next month so I have to renew my drivers license ($50). You know how it is, none of these are big deals, and I love to give nice gifts, its just hard when they all pile up together in one month. Oh, plus I need new contact lenses desperately and I must buy at least one piece of luggage, cause my parents have been kindly lending me theirs every time I go to see P. But this time, they are driving to MSP to my cousin's wedding and I'm tagging along and catching a flight there so we both need the luggage at the same time, and obviously they get it since its...you know...theirs ;)
But oh well, in two weeks everything will have calmed down again. I'm quite happy, just a bit restless for things to happen.
On July 29th, that is less than a week...I will have money to pay some important stuff, I should have my lease, I should have my divorce papers and then the next day is a bit of a birthday todo with my friends, and on the Monday following I have a birthday todo with my family and when I get home from that, it will only be 4 sleeps til I see Paul, so its all good!
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