Tidbits

So, the world might be ending. There is such a storm outside that its....well, a metaphor eludes me, but its incredibad! The lightning is quite literally nonstop and its raining so hard that I can't hear my tv . I keep getting up to look out the window in awe. My strange, small mind immediately decided that perhaps this was the end of the world and I had been left behind. I have issues.

It reminds me of when I came back from ATL last time. The YWG airport was on 'red alert' meaning that planes could arrive and depart however no ground crew was allowed due to the fact that the storm was very lightning intensive. Its a very long story which I shan't relate at this moment...but, my point is that we sat on the tarmac for 2 and a half hours listening to the sheets of rain hit the metal plane. It started as a metallic pinging but as the rain increased, it was like being in a hurricane it was so loud. And that's what it sounds like in my apartment right now as the rain hits my window unit air conditioner.

Tidbit Two - WHY CAN"T I SLEEP?! Someone please help. I haven't slept properly in months. Every so often I get 3 - 5 hours of sleep per night. But its usually more like 2 and then if I'm very lucky, an hour in the afternoon. I don't mean to sleep in the afternoon but I often just collapse at about 4 pm. Its not such a big deal here at home cause I can stay awake and not bother anyone. But in ATL it sucks cause Keef often sleeps in the living room so I don't wanna hang out there cause I feel like I would be bothering him. And in our bedroom, I don't wanna turn on the light and read or whatever cause that might bother Paul. He says it doesn't bother him, but he tosses and turns and mumbles when the light is on, so I feel bad since he has to get up so early in the mornings and I don't. But regardless of here or there...it sucks not sleeping. It makes me emotional and angry and I never feel sharp. I get eshausted easily cause I'm never fully rested. I could take sleeping pills, my doctor willingly gives them to me. But they A) don't work great and B) make me very confused the entire next day and give me VERY bad nightmares. All in all, not worth it. If anyone has suggestions, please let me know.

Tidbit Three - Here's your smooch, Lazuli. *SMOOOOOOOOOCH* :)

Tidbit Four - I got $100 from my family for my birthday for a suitcase, so I went and bought one yesterday. Its bright red and beautiful and has a 10 year warranty and a handle and wheels and lots of cubby holes. Rocks. And it was only $2 more than what they had given me, on sale half price.

Okay, I just reread this entry and I think its somewhat incoherent due to my incredible exhaustion. But it was an okay day all in all. Paul and I had a nice talk and he was pretty happy today. He made me laugh nonstop and was also very sweet - I asked him if he was still getting my emails as text messages on his phone cause he doesn't always respond. He said 'oh, I get them. I look at my phone, I smile, and I go back to work'. And that was my intention, to give him little bright moments in his day. We're so good for each other. And so very very obnoxious to all others in our state of afianced bliss.