Drugs perhaps?

Good week, will write more later. Very much in a funk this week though cause of trying to ease off my celexa. Blah blah. Now I'm alone for the weekend, Pauly went to SOLAR. And I'm having a rough time. I'm lonely and scared and being alone gives me time to think and to dwell on stuff. I just can't forgive or forget a few things from my past and I can't get past them. One person in particular hurt me so badly, and I can't stop thinking of how his influence changed my entire personality for the worse. How do you forgive? And more importantly, how do you forget?