WAHHHHH!

*grouses incessantly* I'm SO TIRED!! This whole insomnia thing is getting worse with every day and I'm too tired to do anything, yet I have so much to do! First, a weekend update:

Very good weekend actually, on Friday I stayed home and talked to Paul a bunch and continued to pack and trash and sell and show the apartment. About, hmm, I think a half dozen folks have come and looked at my apartment, but no serious takers yet. Then on Saturday was Chris' birthday and we went to Ivory, which is Indian food. It was really, really excellent. If you live in Winnipeg you should definitely go. The decor was really beautiful, the service was quite good and the food was fantastic. For $17 you could get the buffet and it was a heck of a buffet. Prolly a dozen main courses, around 8 salads, 4 desserts, several kinds of rice and bread type deals. Just really good all around. Then we went back to Andra and Matt's to give Chris his gifties and the rest of the folks drank some of the copious amounts of beer that Kev brought with him from Calgary.

Then on Sunday I went to my parents for a combo Thanksgiving celebration and Shari's birthday. My mom made an incredible meal, the highlight of which (for me) was home made buns, home made sage dressing and equally home made gravy. I like to eat all three of these things in one big giant smear of goodness. There were three kinds of pie for dessert, but I don't much like pie. But then Bryson asked me to buy some chocolate covered almonds for his school fundraiser, so I got to eat those for dessert. Please don't ask me if I ate the whole box in one sitting without even pausing for breath. My future kids better not sell these for fundraisers or I'm gonna need ask them to fetch me my pryin' bar. Then we gave Shar her gifts and sat around and played Balderdash for a while. I HATE Balderdash, but Shar said it would be 'really meaningful to me if you would all play'. So what can you do? I also used the excuse of driving out to Niverville to bring a half a car full of crap home to either store there or distribute amongst the willing hands of ma famille.

Okey, then Monday what did I do? *thinks* Stayed in and packed a bunch of crap, showed the apartment to a really nice girl who liked the place and I surely hope that she takes it! And then someone from another suite in the building saw the sign I had posted re selling a bunch of my stuff, so she came up and scoured my apartment for stuff. She took a LOT of stuff, but had no one to help her carry it, so together we carried down my hutch, my bookshelf, my lamp, a flower pot, a curtain rod and about 1/4 of all my dishes. It was exhausting, but the cash was lovely!!

And then today I spent the day attempting to sleep (HA!) and then in the evening I met Ame at Buccacino's (one of my favourite Italian restaurants, right in the heart of the Village). My portion of the dinner with tax and tip was basically exactly $15 and that was what she had agreed to pay me for my waffle iron, so I essentially got a free dinner, woot! Then she came back here and we chatted for an hour or so and then as she was leaving I thrust a bunch more of my stuff on her. (Oh, you've never played that game? Well, take it! Please, take it! *thrust thrust*)

Then, talked to Paul for a while...actually, I sort of cried at him. I tried to explain that although I am thrilled to be moving my life to be with him, it is still actually very frightening. I'm throwing away/selling/ or storing ALL of my belongings that I have taken 15 years to accumulate. I am severing ties with all of my doctors etc that I have found over the past decade and a half. I am giving up everything to be with my Paul. And, the thing is, I couldn't be happier about it! I know that he and I are meant to be together...but it is still really scary to be doing all of this. Plus, its freaking exhausting getting 20 phone calls a day about the things that I have to sell and the apartment that I have to sublet. And its exhausting to be packing all day and trying to decide what is worth taking with me, what is worth storing, what is worth enough money that I should try to sell it, what is still in decent enough shape to give away and what should just be trashed. I am lucky if I'm getting 3 hours of sleep in every 24 hour period, and the rest of my time is spent sorting and complaining. I'm FUN!

Anyway, I'm doing all right, I'm just currently mentally and physically exhausted. But Paul and I bought my ticket today, I will be heading back to Atlanta next Saturday, the 22nd. I'm leaving from Minneapolis again, so that means that my folks will drive me down there, which was actually kind of fun last time, in retrospect.

So, that's about all. Oh, and I'm totally psyched cause today (Wed) my momma is taking me shopping. She says that she is tired of seeing me in clothes that are all too big (I've lost some weight and also tend to buy my clothes big and also have so few clothes that I wear Paul's a lot :p) so she wants to buy me, ideally, a pair of jeans and 3 tops. Plus I have a wee bit of cash to buy a few items too. YAY!! I need clothes SO BADLY! All, yes all, of my clothes and undies and socks and shoes fit in one large suitcase, that is just not enough! This also means that I will probably get a free lunch too. *beam* And, because I will be storing a lot of stuff at my folks, I will take the opportunity to bring a car full of stuff out there. I'm trying to calm and steady myself by writing lists of all that I have to do in the next 10 days, but there is too damn much, I can't keep up :) Oh well, it will all be so worth it when I'm back again with my Pauly baby and my Smeagol the Wiggle Worm.

If you're reading this Paul, I love you so much and despite my complaining, nothing makes me happier than the prospect of the rest of my life spent in Atlanta, with you.