Being pregnant is really weird. I've wanted a baby really since I was a child myself and I've spent a great deal of time imagining being a mom and trying to comprehend the horrors of labor and delivery but I've never really thought about the pregnancy process. I remember back in my Introduction to Sociology course in University the professor talked about pregnancy and said something along the lines of 'don't ever let anyone tell you that your fetus is not a parasite because it most certainly is. It will take and take and take from you and you will be left a slave to its needs. And you will happily deal with it because in the end, theoretically, you will have a healthy, happy child - your goal'. I really liked this professor but I didn't get this statement at the time, not really, although it clearly stuck with me all this time and holy crap do I get it now. My entire life and my daily activities, my moods, my thoughts...everything is controlled by this little five inch creature in my belly. And yet there have been times when we thought we were going to lose that little creature and the emotional pain of it was almost unbearable. I love the little thing with all my heart no matter how much it makes me miserable.
I figure there are two kinds of people in the world; those crazy-ass bitches who say things like ' I LOVED being pregnant, I never felt so healthy and so feminine', and then there are the normal people who say ' man, pregnancy sucksucksucks, but it is a means to an end and I'll get through the crap in order to have what I've wanted for so long'.
I am currently completely immersed in the latter thought process. 24 weeks to go.
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I'm with you. I did not fully enjoy being pregnant. I got so damn huge, everything hurt near the end..hips, back, feet. the emotional toll was hard on me, everything damn thing made me cry. I can't complain much about my labor, tho it was long, once I had my epidural, it was painless. Woo! Don't know your freelings on that part, but I wouldn't do it again without it.
I can't wait to share this journey with you, even tho it's long distance and online. Hugs and kisses!
sorry about the typos, apparantly i've lost the ability to proofread.
Congratulations! Don't worry about your readership, mine dropped off too. I think it's because my blogs are too long and boring.
25 more weeks to go! I know, it probably seems forever, but it's great to hear that you got through those important first 13 weeks. Keep yourself healthy and relax! We're with you.
Oh I sooooo agree with you! I'm 21 weeks and this little guy is punching and kicking the living crap out of me. Not to mention, I get moody so easily these days and I've started cleaning the house like an OCD freak. Not to mention, I don't feel pretty anymore because I'm lugging around a bowling ball under my shirt. But yeah, it's a means to an end and in the end, I'll have a little boy that's so tiny and so cute and all mine :)
Or what about people like Julia Roberts or Angelina Jolie who look EXACTLY THE SAME pregnant as they do the rest of the time (stick thin) except for a cute little bump (even when they were both carrying twins!). Even my tiny, skinny sister swelled up when she was pregnant, and she's young and healthy. Blah!
*grin* thanks for the comments folks.
And I'm also cleaning the house like a madwoman, justagirl, nothing is EVER GOOD ENOUGH OR CLEAN ENOUGH!
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